If anyone had told me ten years ago what the next ten years would look like, I would have never, ever believed that I could make it through them. I guess it’s good that we don’t get told these things!
I still can’t really believe how long I’ve been in this system/process/situation. I started dating at 21, I’m almost 32. Those numbers are impossible to me. And I realize that the landscape I’ve traversed over the past decade-plus is actually a timescape. I’ve traveled through a desert, an ocean, a mountain range of time. Years that were easier and years that were harder. Months, days, and hours of every possible kind of feeling. I’ve done this without a compass, a map, a signpost, a clock. I’ve done this with very little preparation.
And it is amazing. I could have only done this with a lot of support and love and siyata d’Shmaya. What “this” is, I’m not even sure. Just to make it through all that time. And to become more, be more. It is awe-inspiring.
